*Big Sigh
Oh, that last entry was hard to read. It captured so much. Sadly, I'm in the same state.
As Saturday approached I simply couldn't do it. We are too "ok" right now. It's just so random and feels so...almost cruel. We're sitting across a room and he's forming hearts with his hands and smiling at me and I'm supposed to run over and break his heart?
I'm so scared. I can't even respond when he tells me he loves me. I feel so bad and so wrong. But, I'm still trapped and I can't do anything.
God, I'm so sad and so alone.
...I can't do this.