From the other diary.
Six months. After six months you will know, you should know if you are in love/love the person you are with. We are on our way. I think we have a definite "feel" for each other. (And I like what I have seen.) I like how I know he's from the rich part of town, but isn't a snob (and recognizes how stupid it is to act like that.) I like how his friends have to rag on him for not drinking enough (although he does drink ;) I like how he gets embarressed (it's good to be humbled at times.) I like how he has more clothes than me (but appreciates the chill clothes.) I like him. I like him a lot.
I think it's time for me to take the risk, take the plunge, ask him to open something up for me. Ask myself to open a little to him. I don't really know how to do it. I want to be able to ask him about God, and not apologize or oversimplify what I believe, or apologize for us having sex, when I know he's catholic. I want him to be able to recognize that something is out of line (either his parent's faith, or himself for acting outside of it.) I want to find out what he really believes about our world, about other people, about society's condition. I want to know what he thinks about us, about relationships, about love. I want to know what his core values are.
I want to know what makes him cry. (If anything does.) I want to know what makes him laugh, what he loves, what he can't stand.
I want to get into playful arguments, engaging conversations. I want to explore each other's sexually (openly). I want to know his fears(the deep ones.) I want to know his passionate dreams (the life ones.) I want to know what annoys him, what he can't live without. It's about turning wants into realities. I can do this. If I ever want to grow in my path of relationships, I must start (from here.)
